October 2006 was when I picked up
my first C.S. Lewis book.
I had overheard a conversation
at a Graduation reception
as a Harvard graduate told the story
of his "loss of faith" while at the University.
Then he was assigned to read
Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis.
He began to move back toward the cross.
Intrigued by this story,
I put it on my stack of books to read.
A challenging read, yes,
but some sentences
just kept coming back over and over.
On October 15,
I gave up my struggle to remember the words.
In the middle of the night I grabbed a canvas,
slathered paint on,
and waited impatiently for it to dry.
And began to write...
the sentences that were turning around in my head.
And my heart.
I believe that this was an integral point
in my understanding that I needed to
SEE things to make the connections.
Over and Over again.
To SEE IT.
It has hung on a wall
in my house ever since that night.
And as I pass by,
a sentence or two will catch my attention.
And I remember......
Recently a daughter said she was starting
to read Mere Christianity.
I asked if she wanted a reading companion.
Then I noticed how faded the
Sharpie pen had become on the canvas.
Time for a do-over.
So - today- January 16, 2018,
11 1/2 years later- I wrote over the words again.
Yes, we live in enemy-occupied territory.
He is NOT a tame God.
God cannot give happiness and peace
apart from Himself, because it is not there.
Faith- the art of holding on to things
your reason has once accepted,
in spite of your changing moods.
Perhaps, this will last till 2030,
another 12 years.
And possibly, my need to SEE and Remember
will still be an integral part
of how the Lord makes connections
in my spiritual formation.
I am thankful for the journey.